As I sit and contemplate...

As I sit and contemplate the past year (I know that it is a few weeks late, but better late than never, right?) I am coming to some realizations about my life.

1)  I am HORRIBLE at updating this thing.
2)  I love my job of homeschooling our children, providing nourishing food for our family, and managing our home, BUT
3)  I feel guilty and stressed that my Go With the Flow Husband is saddled with the responsibility of providing for us financially, I HATE seeing him stressed out.
4)  I don't spend enough time spiritually on myself with prayer, meditation, journaling, reading, and contemplation.
5).  Physical exertion is an absolute necessity for me in order to feel balanced and not edgy.
6)  If I can carve out time for the above acts in my life, then I feel that I may be able to continue on my balance beam while juggling the many balls (I was going to go for a dramatic image hear and say juggling chainsaws, but I thought they may be overdoing it) that I have accepted as my calling in life.
7)  I believe that I have another calling that has been added to my plate that will remain "mine" for now, to roll around inside my head and become a part of the fabric that is my crazy quilt before being unveiled to you.

I have always been a list-maker, I like a nice organized list.  It is easy to see what needs to be done, and what you have accomplished by those little tick-marks that you can place with satisfaction after completing a task.  That being said, here is my list on (hopefully) how I will remedy the above musings.

1)  Make it a task to update on here at least once a week and make sure that this task gets a tick mark.
2)  Continue with homeschooling (organize the boy's binders, take more time to read out loud), continue feeding my family nourishing, whole foods in ways that make it fun interesting for them, become more adamant in my home managing skills/lists.
3)  Offer encouragement and thanks to my Go With the Flow Husband for his part in allowing our family to be together more. 
4)  Carve out time for myself every day to spend in quiet to grow spiritually.  This may mean waking up well before the boys, or using time after they are in bed (which can be hard because there are many times that I crash right along with them).
5)  Make my running/exercise time a priority, yet again.  When I push this to the back to make room for everyone else I become edgy and my insomnia returns...translation:  wife/mom that can work out = happy wife/mom = happy homelife.
6)  Slightly touched on above:  MAKE TIME!!  If I have to wake up an hour or so before the boys do, so be it.
7)  Continue praying about/exploring this idea.

Whew!!  TWO lists made, and a list awaiting me on the table for today.   It is time to start making those tick marks.

Peace & Namaste (I recognize the Divine in you that is also in me.),